Back on track

im kind of fcking hopeless.
But after a week of binging, I finally ate only 153 today. All in candy XD Ohh god i love candy way too much.
i ate :
 1 fun sized dark milky way bar (81)
 2 Dum Dum lollipops (51 put together)
 2 mini tootsie rolls (21)

My stomach has gotten to nasty heights.

I have to go to my sister's 17th birthday party in downtown Chicago on the 18th at some high-class restaurant. I have to dress up and shxt uuggh.
I hate parties
But. A lot of people are going, and since my mother is forcing me to go, I have to lose as much weight as possible by the 17th. So that leaves me with approximately 10 days. I'll probably limit my calories to 200 for 4 days, including today, and then water fast for the rest of the days. On the 18th, I wont eat anything until the party. I know that's a surefire way to binge at the party,, but there will be people watching me, so I think I'll be safe, since i can barely eat in front of people.

I have to wear a dress
a coctail dress.
Which can only mean one thing, bare shoulders, backs, legs. All of my fat will hang out if I don't do something quick.

Leg Thinspo

You're welcome.

Morning Weigh In... And...

I AM 146. That is 6 down from yesterday (I weighed myself at night yesterday).
Which means that I have officially reached my first goal of 150! And I am ONE POUND AWAY from my second goal, woot woot!
I think I'll fast today because I need to think clearly.. I tend to think clearer when I'm not bursting at the seams with food.
Anyway fasting might not be very easy since my mother is staying home all day... She's sleeping right now, so I'll whip up  some fake breakfast to throw down the drain (a waste, i know :p) If I don't eat anything all day, and only drink water, I'll shitt a load, rightt? Idk, but I know that I need to get rid of my water weight and my shit weight before I can truly see how much I weigh.
Also, your body does not experience signaficant change if you fast for one day, so I think I'll fast for the whole weekend. Maybe I'll fast on Monday, too. Who knows.  Aiight now I'm just babbling. Here's your thinspo for the day. Stay skinny! xx

7 pounds down!

Hey! I checked the scale this morning. 151! I'm 7 pounds down since 5 days ago, even though I've been binging for 3 of those days... Anyway, I'll be eating around 100 tomorrow. Probobly a clementine and a small apple.
I'm one pound away from my first goaall :]
Actually I'm weighing myself at 7:25 pm, so maybe I'm already at my goal! I'll weigh again tomorrow. My shirt that was a bit too tight has gotten looser, which is pretty fucking awesome :]

** A tip so you don't eat like a fucking fat pig is to just not eat breakfast. I know it's counter-intuitive, but to me, if I don't eat breakfast, I don't want to eat the rest of the day because I don't want to undo my hard work of starting the day off right.

DAILY THINSPO:

AYO. Back for good(:

Hola chicas(: I am back for good.
After failing my ana boot camp, I decided to go on another diet. Last Sunday  to February 17, 2011.
Basically, 14 days of me eating 300 cal and then going on a 3 day fast, and repeat until Feb 17. After gaining around 13 pounds, I knew I had to do something.

Here's some leg thinspo: